Sheila Halhead

Since I finally told my boyfriend that I don't love him because I felt my heart told me so. I mean, it's strange because I never done that before. Maybe older girls have the same things. Like, when you told someone that he/she love you you don't love them because you have a strange feeling about your heart said to you. Your heart told you to not love them. Sometime you hide yourself about not love them because you don't want to see them upset, well, until then you finally told them because you have to. Just like me. I didn't go out with him for one week because I told him I wanted to stay home for need space, well, actually, that's mean I didn't want him to come here in my room to asked, like, going to Burger King or something like that, you know? But again, I told him, I needed space for the while. He didn't know that I actually don't love him. Maybe he thought I might be need to push him away from me or something like that. I can tell his eyes told my heart that.

But....when I finally told him, he was heartbroken and confused. Sometime I can't explain to him why, why, why and WHY. Cos he kept asking me why, why, why and whyyyy. God, I hates that question "Why?". Srsly, it was too much, you know? I just told him it was my heart told me not to love him. He didn't understand about women's feelings. God.

Now this week, we never spoke...never hang out or anything. BUT he tried his best to make me happy or tried to love him but he failed.

Soyeah.

....Bawwww.

Hi, guys. I'm not really go on LJ anymore, I guess. Maybe a few days I will go on to more upload the Journal about my life.
But it was a LONG story about what happened before xmas.
Ugh, first I had a good life but my boyfriend ruined my "good" life because he WAS drinking last night, agh. Right, I was there to sleep on his bed then he went out without went to sleep share with me. I couldn't sleep so I had get up at about 1am and my brother came and knocked the door. I unlocked it. My brother asked me where is he. My boyfriend, he said. I said to him I don't know. And then he thought he was drinking because he saw him out of the night with his mates. His "mates"? On that late night? Pffft.
How could he forgot about me going to sleep without help me to wake up with a clock alarm for college? No, he's compeleted drunk. :'c And also, he've got a huge beated up. He've got the blood all over his nose and his mouth. Look like someone beated up with him. I hadn't got a clue what happened to him.
I guess my brother knew about everything and he told me that too.